DIGITIZED THOUGHTS

Don't blame me for what and how I feel.

2009-05-07T21:20:00.000-07:00

These days are as grey as the monsoon sky

You think I'm shallow for having money

You think I've became someone else

I am not who I used to be

I am a mortal hybrid

The conjunction of mind, body, spirit and respect

I immortalize myself through my marks on people

I am not fake for there is nothing real in this world anymore

I may be bitter but I'm just fucking realistic

What do you expect from someone scarred by his own brethren

My tongue is sharp but so is my mind

I may come off arrogant, but I really do mean well

You may think I never lose

You may feel I don't have sympathy nor empathy

You may feel I don't care

You may think I am all that

Truth is, I don't conform to judgement

I do what I do

I accept the consequences

You never accept me

So, why the fuck would I care about that single person?

world.doubutsu-uranai.com

2009-02-16T05:07:00.000-08:00

A friend recommended this site. Some sort of personality test site. I tried out of curiosity and found true descriptions of my character. You should TRY!!!

Here's mine:

You are Black koala, who is cheerful, amiable and youthful.
But you lack activeness and prefer to be on your own.
You are not good at taking leadership and to take initiative.
You react after carefully considering the action and are convinced.
Even if you are asked your opinion, you don't speak from heart and you don't give out your opinions.

You think you are acting cool, but people around you think you are eerie.
You can not stand to hurt others or get hurt yourself, so you tend to be nice to others.
You have a sharp instinct and when having an argument, you try to develop the argument by reading the other person's minds.
By doing so, you effectively make your point.
Both cautiousness and timidity reside in you.
If you rely too much on first instinct, your action may be haphazard.
Nevertheless, you tend to be strong-minded, and will put in all your effort, even if you upset your health.

You are indifferent to commodities.
You tend to be careful with money, so you won't experience much loss.
You have extremely strong likes and dislikes of people.
You have lots of friends, but at the same time you can create lots of enemies too.
You may exhibit extraordinary talent as a scholar or an entertainer.

TRY!: world.doubutsu-uranai.com

APPLE TREE.....by Erykah Badu (a song that represents me)

2009-02-16T04:26:00.000-08:00

I'd like to dedicate this to all of the Creator's righteous children.
I have some food in my bag for you.
Not that edible food -- the food you eat?
No. I have some food for thought.
Since knowledge is infinite it has infinitely fell on me.
So umm...

It was a stormy night
you know the kind where the lightning strike
and I was hangin' out wit some of my "artsy" friends
ooh wee ooh wee oooh
The night was long the night went on
people coolin' out until the break of dawn
incense was burnin' so I'm feelin right -- ah'ight

See I picks my friends like I pick my fruit
& Ganny told me that when I was only a youth
I don't go 'round trying to be what I'm not
I don't waste my time trying ta get what you got
I work at pleasin' me cause I can't please you
and that's why I do what I do
My soul flies free like a willow tree

And if you don't want to be down with me
You don't want to pick from my appletree

I have a ho
and I take it everywhere I go
Cause I'm planting seeds
so I reaps What I sow -- ya know
Oh on & on & on & on
my cipher keeps movin' like a rollin' stone
I can't control the soul flowin' in me
ooh wee

See I picks my friends like I pick my fruit
& Ganny told me that when I was only a youth
I don't walk around trying to be what I'm not
I don't waste my time trying ta get what you got
I work at pleasin' me cause I can't please you
and that's why I do what I do
My soul flies free like a willow tree

And if you don't want to be down with me,
You don't want to pick from my appletree

I picks my friends like I pick my fruit
& Ganny told me that when I was only a youth
I don't walk around trying to be what I'm not
I don't waste my time trying ta get what you got
I work at pleasin' me cause I can't please you
and that's why I do what I do
My soul flies free like a willow tree
doo wee doo wee do wee

And if you don't want to be down with me
You don't want to pick from my appletree

erykah badu - my hero

No Cheesecake since 14th February

2009-02-10T00:42:00.000-08:00

You're at your favorite coffee-shop. Looking for a chilled-out time of your own and indulge yourself with your favorite cake of all time. A blueberry cheesecake. You always order the exact same slice. The third one from the left (somehow they always display only three slices of cheesecakes and you've become so attached to the cheesecake itself that you know which slice you want). You don't care what beverage to go with it. Bitter or sweet, you just don't care.

You love the cheesecake for its readiness to embrace your desire to indulge yourself. You feel emotionally so attached to a single slice that you just have to have a daily dosage all to yourself. You feel your cheesecake loves you too. The connection is inexplicable. No sharing.

A rainy day, and all you want is to order the cheesecake straightaway. You want love.

None are left. Not even a single slice. You sigh. However, you decide to go forward with your coffee-shop ritual. Not ordering any kind of cakes and you drink a cup of coffee.

The next day is a deja-vu. No cheesecake. You start to feel neglected and sad. You order a bitter coffee and sulk all to yourself.

It's not raining the next day. You get all your hopes all high, wishing to have your slice of cheesecake. Negative. You feel betrayed. A cup of bitter coffee and nothing else.

"Hi!", said the barista standing next to your table.

"Hi," you start to feel a little guilty for just ordering coffee and nothing else.

"Would you like to try our new flavored cheesecake? This one's made low-fat and topped with maple syrup, instead of blueberry," he said.

You feel tempted. You missed the soft-crumbly taste of your love, your blueberry cheesecake. You decide to take a bite and end up liking it.

The very next day, no blueberry ones. You order the maple cheesecake, even though you still miss the blueberry one.

Bite after bite, you realize that your favorite preference shifted. From blueberry to maple. You don't mind at all.

The next few weeks, you realize, apparently the coffee-shop decided to stop making blueberry cheesecakes. You don't know why and you don't feel bothered at all if there's no blueberry cheesecake on the display trays. You have your maple syrup cheesecake. Not quite your favorite-all-lovable cheesecake yet, but you know you start to crave for it.

After ordering your maple syrup cheesecake you walk to your favorite table. Right next to the leafy potted plant is a sign covered in leaves you missed to read weeks before.

The sign says: "We stop making Blueberry Cheesecake on the 14th February, for the Blueberry farm down-south are having serious pest control issues. We care for our customer's health. We apologize for any inconvenience caused. Thank you."

MY MORNING RITUAL LIVE WITH REGIS & KELLY

2009-02-02T08:28:00.001-08:00

Okay, I have to say, this blog is really becoming a totally random thing. What can I say? If life is random then so is my blog for the fact that we coexist in this world.

In life, I believe we always have some sort of habitual protocol in dealing with life. Now, since my life is becoming a bit of a blur these days, I have an endless morning ritual before really dealing with this oh-so-blurry-life of mine.

I wake up around 11-ish or so. Just like most people I know, I stay up till almost dawn before hitting the dream clouds. So, hey, don't judge me of being lazy just by the fact I wake up late everyday. My brain is nocturnal.

The first thing I do is of course make myself a cup of coffee. Or maybe two. Depends on the mood I'm in for the day. Usually, my mum will ask me the same question: "You couldn't sleep again, could you?" *sigh*. No, I don't brush my teeth before coffee. That makes the coffee taste all toothpaste-ey.

After the coffee, then it's on to my MacBook. Yes. Some of you might think I'm one of those 'don't-have-a-life-slash-internet-geek' since checking my email is the first thing I do every morning. Hey, I do have a life. It's just that mine is pretty much digital and maybe yours are not and is rather obsolete. However, if you do the same thing, then good on you!

Then I go to the Live With Regis & Kelly website. I watch their morning video online everyday. Yes, it's American and some of you might have never heard of them. So, it's pretty much like a morning talk show. Light topics, discussions on that day's news headlines, TV shows, et cetera.

The thing I really like about them is the witty banter between the two and the huge age gap that seems never seems to be a problem between Regis Philbin and Kelly Ripa. They're fresh enough to start my day.

Check them out. You might end up liking them and start doing the same morning ritual as I do.

What Am I? (a self-reminder of my vision)

2009-02-02T04:55:00.000-08:00

I consider myself as artist. I am a creative force that produces many things. Throughout my entire life, I sung on stage, acted at local theatre, designed many posters and fliers, designed buildings, and built an interactive art installation. However, I believe I am not alone on this creative journey. My friends have been with me loyally. My friends that are machine beings. My microphone when I am performing, my computer when I am designing an art form, my camera when I am taking photographs, my mobile phone when I am trying to communicate with someone remote, my wrist watch when I am looking for time. The list of friends that have been with me all these years could become longer. As an artist, I believe that these machines are inseparable to me. We all share connections that are very strong. I have lost my laptop once and I felt as if I had lost a part of me. It is almost to the point as if they are a part of my identity, a part of who I am.

Back then, when I had less knowledge on what cyborgs were, I basically just painted a picture in my mind of humans that had a few machine parts attached permanently to their bodies. The images were visualized in my mind with the help of various science fiction movies and TV series, such as the Bionic Woman, Robocop, Terminator, et cetera. Fear and negative connotations were imposed on these part-human-part-machine images as a consequence of the influence these movies and these television series had on me.

When I took the Digital Culture subject in 2007, my creative eyes were opened even more. I learned about what lied behind the connections I felt with my machine friends. I learned about cyborgism. Now, I am not just an artist. I am a cyborgian artist. I share connections with my machine friends and I feel them to have seamlessly entered my soul and become embodied in me, though not yet physically.

When I decided to take upon further study on cyborg theories through this research, it was as if I had found a new world to discover. The contamination and shifting border of what I used to refer to as purely organic human being and machine technology seemed like a suitably fresh and adventurous border-crossing issue. I also knew that this particular study was a simultaneously growing field – in the world, in discourse, in culture.

RadioGraphy

2009-01-31T11:10:00.001-08:00

This post is dedicated entirely to our very own professional service. As one of the founders, I'm proud to introduce.......*drumroll*.....

Just a little introduction below of who we are and what we do.....

A group of young photographers based in Surabaya, the RadioGraphy team consists of young broadcast media workers. Offering cutting-edge professionalism, RadioGraphy guarantees to give the best artistic photography result. May it be your pre-wedding, year book, fashion spread, conceptual photography, and company profile, we will always exceed your expectation by providing edgy concepts and professional attitude.

RadioGraphy team:
Dego Taharuddin (MAKE-UP ARTIST)
The dazzling cheerfulness of Dego Taharuddin will affect you as soon as you meet her in person. Her experience as a make-up artist came from her own personal experience putting on make-up for colleagues. She is now working as an Assistant Program Director for a radio station, a very well-known radio personality, a TV Host and a Master of Ceremony. Come and meet her and we're pretty sure you'll agree that she's a whole lotta woman!

Jerry Nugroho (PHOTOGRAPHER)
As a guy that think of art as a way to express himself, Jerry Nugroho sure has his way to do so. He sings, acts, and hosts. He finished his postgraduate study at the University of Sydney, Australia, majoring in Digital Media and now holds the degree Master of Design Science. He was introduced to photography at a very young age by his father. He is now working as a TV Host, a Master of Ceremony, and also creates company profiles for various companies.

May Sumampouw (PHOTOGRAPHER)
Being a model was her first occupation. From there, May Sumampouw has been dealing with photography since a very young age and later on revealed one of her hidden passions. The wit and the smartness of this girl will surely make you comfortable during photo-shoots. Her photographic skills came from her incredible talent and her own experience as a model. She is a Communication Science major and also a well known TV Host, Master of Ceremony.

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Let’s Put A Smile On That Face…

2009-01-31T11:05:00.000-08:00

I was never really attracted to Batman as a kid and maybe it’s because Batman doesn’t really have a superpower. He just has his super gadgets, bat-mobile, and of course, Robin. However, the hype of this movie got me sitting in the cinema with friends. First of all, The Dark Knight is like a summation of all things Hollywood, only better. It’s like watching the all-things-Hollywood being brought up to the next level. Now, imagine the budget for this movie. Explosions of buildings. Multiple cars and trucks crashes. Costumes. Special effects. All-star cast which features Christian Bale, Maggie Gyllenhaal, Gary Oldman, Morgan Freeman, Aaron Eckhart, Michael Caine, and most notably, the great late Heath Ledger. Throughout the entire movie, it seems like Heath’s potrayal and interpretation of Joker overshadows Christian bale’s effort in Batman. It’s just amazing in all aspects. The costumes, the makeup, the laughs, the voice…. It’s an epic effort.

In my entire life, I only have one favorite mentally disturbed character for movies. Angelina Jolie in Girl, Interrupted. Yes, I know she didn’t kill anyone in that movie. But her way of playing that character (I forgot the name…someone help me!) is awesome. It almost made Wynona Ryder’s name on the movie poster rather dull. Heath Ledger’s Joker is a newbie for my list.

In life, we always have hypothetical questions. For example, if you’re someone famous, who would you like to be? If you can ask for one wish to come true, what would it be? and so on. Now, I know what to answer if someone asks me if I were a psycho, what kind of psycho I’d want to be. I would love to be Joker. Just like the way Heath Ledger played it oh-so-well in The Dark Knight.

Do you wanna know how I got these scars?

originally posted on July 22nd, 2008

Breathless

2009-01-31T11:00:00.000-08:00

Normally, I don’t listen to that much radio these days. First, because I don’t own a portable pocket sized one and second, I prefer draining my Ipod battery on my long walks and bus rides. Weirdly enough as I was working on the lab yesterday, one girl was there. This is not normal. It’s the time of the year where no one, literally no one is on campus. So for the past couple of weeks it’s been only me inside that weirdly located research lab/office.

But there she is, typing stuff and all, when suddenly she came to me and asked me if it’s ok listening to the radio as she’s going to turn up the volume. I said why not.

A caller was on the air. A guy. He requested a song. What sticks with me are those words he said when being asked by the DJ why he wants to hear it.

“I just want to say to my best friend. She knows who she is and I know she’s listening right now. I just want to say I’ve waited for so long to have you. I know I’m still waiting now. And I know I’m patient enough to wait even more for you to be with me. I want you to know I’m not going anywhere.”

His voice trembled saying that last sentence. He hung up even before the DJ got a chance to ask him another question. They played the song.

As the song played, in my mind was her. It is still her.

It was “Breathless” by Corinne Bailey Rae.

Seems like everyone else has a love just for them,
I don't mind, we have such a good time,
My best friend, but sometimes, well,
I wish we could be more than friends,
Tell me do you know?
Tell me do you know?
Oh..

I get so breathless, when you call my name,
I've often wondered, do you feel the same?
There's a chemistry, energy, a synchronicity
When we're all alone,
So don't tell me
You can't see
What I'm thinking of.

I can understand that you don't want to cross the line,
And you know i can't promise you things,
Will turn out fine,
But i have to be honest, I want you to be mine
Tell me do you know?
Tell me do you know?
Oh...

I get so breathless, when you call my name,
I've often wondered, do you feel the same?
There's a chemistry, energy, a synchronicity
When we're all alone,
So don't tell me
You can't see
Oh!

'Cause I've tried to do this right in your own time
I've been telling with my eyes, my heart's on fire,
Why don't you realize?
Tell me do you know?
Tell me do you know?
I get so breathless...

watch the video here

Originally posted on July 10th, 2008

Hello World!

2009-01-31T10:43:00.000-08:00

As a result of my very own insomniac nights, I decided to do this blog. Ooops.......sorry, I don't mean to be rude. My name is Jerry Nugroho.

Since the posts in this blog will somehow be a random compilation of my thoughts, I'd like to start with a rather random introduction of my likes and dislikes. Here goes:

"casual, art freak, love to laugh my head-off, tech-aware, lazy, but sometimes too lazy, can't stand untidyness, going out type, ipod freak and anythin apple, hate too much sleepin, luv girls with attitude, hate backstabbers, loooovee jap's food, Caffeine Junkie, can't stop singing my lungs out, bit moody sometimes, bad appetite for anything too sweet but love chocolates, broadcasting, supermarkets, and much more."

See any similarities?

Truth be told, I'm actually importing my previous blog to here so that it's easier to update.

Friends, foes and wannabes, this is just a start. We have all the time in the world to know each other, right?

*damn right*